Inside my head

While running the other day... I was thinking! I put on music so I dont drive myself insane but sometimes that does not work either. But this is where I think the most.  Ok, truth is,  I am just a woman... we just over think everything! Anyways, while running the other day the song Open Arms comes on from Journey. At first when it came on, I was kind of bummed. Really? This song on a run! I had it on shuffle on my phone and I dont like to mess with it regardless of what song comes on so it has to stay this song. I know I need to make a running play list. I had one on my other phone but just havent done it on this one yet. Its pissing me off. I need to go to +Verizon Wireless  and see whats going on with it!  Anyways, back to my point. Open Arms came on ,in case you dont know the song. Here is is.  http://youtu.be/XhaZoomfnlE   Ok, so it comes on and Im bummed, then I start actually listening to the words. And it actually became a song that pushed me harder! I started to think. I dedicate this to myself! Go listen to it!  Yeah. It may sound conceited. But I dont care. I used to not love me! I I have fallen in love with me. It has taken time and I know that everyday, I will find another reason to love me more.  Doing things that will make me happy.  I love being me. What I do for a living has helped me love me. Touching others , inspiring others. On all levels. I love it. So yes I do have open arms for me! And what?

Do Over

Re-Starting #focusT25 today. I was barely on week 2 when I got sick. I was sick throughout the Thanksgiving Holiday. I did lose about 10 lbs and so many inches. My stomach shrunk dramatically. That was the good side of it. The bad side... I lost all muscle. My butt is missing. So if you find it.. please please return it!!!  I also have to start training for the Houston Marathon that I am doing on January 19th, 2014! 26.2 miles of running. On my feet! lol.. I am scare, scared that I am going to lose all my toenails. I have already lost one and its about to come off again! I need new shoes! #asics My favorite shoe is no longer around! And I want it so bad! I just cant seem to get that same feel anymore. But I will... one day. I am so scared though. Just thinking about the pain. The pain. I am scared of. I know I can do it. But I am scared!

Obstacles

HI!!!

 I am up and ready to push play. This is Day 3 of our group challenge and I feel great. I have overcome some obstacles already. They like to jump at you right in the beginning, just to test you. I will say that I am proud of myself. I have been waking up early and I really do not have to. I work at home. I can schedule my workout anytime. All of my kids attend school so its not like I have to wake up early so I wont be bothered by them and I can concentrate just on me. Its me time! Aint nothing wrong with that. Another thing I am proud of myself, is that I have not done any late night snacking!!!! :-) One of my many weaknesses. Obstacles and weaknesses will always be there. There is no way to avoid them. Its how you deal with them that make you who you are.

On day 1 of this challenge, the obstacles began. I woke up at 5 am just so my son, Isaiah 14, can workout with me. I was going to wake him up at 515 so we can push play by 530 and we will be done by 6. The workouts are only 25 minutes. He needs to be in the shower by 6. So i adjusted my schedule that would accommodate him.  Well, when I tried to wake him up. He didnt. So I had to make a choice right then and there. Do I go to back to sleep and wait to workout at 6? Should I? I dont need to be up this early!! My body wanted me to go back to sleep. Shoot, I was tired! I really did feel I could just crawl back in bed. But I didnt!! I didnt! I ended up staying up and pushing play and it felt amazing all day! Get my body pumped in the morning gives me tons of energy all day. I do get tired. But when its time to go to bed. I want to go to sleep at 9pm now. Which is great! SHiiiiiit. My body gets to rest to. And I dont snack at night!!! I just want to knock out! Back in the day my night snacking consisted of chocolate milk, ritz crackers, peanut butter, grape or strawberry jelly, or peanut butter sandwich! My ultimate favorite! Ooo and chunky chips ahoy cookies. With a huge glass of milk. I even did all from when I was about 12 to 26 years old. Ok now.. that does not happen. My late night snacking is granola, popcorn, apples, grapes, pineapple, almond milk. Yes they are healthier choices but.... I eat a lot of it. So bad. So bad. I need to stay focus. And I am proud of myself. I have gone 3 days without snacking at night. YAyYYyyY!

Come join me folks! I want to help all accomplish their goals. I want to push you to the rewards that are out there for you! All of it with hard work. And you will not be alone!

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Chevron Houston Marathon nerves catching up with me . 26.2 miles.

So the time is passing and I am now realizing that on January 19th I will be running 26.2 miles. I am scared. Just thinking about it I feel like I am about to have a heart attack. I dont know if its an anxiety attack or what. What scares me is that I have not trained for it. The most miles I have put on these legs this year is 13.1 , which was this past January for the Aramco Half Marathon. Now its time to stay dedicated and push! Eat clean and work hard everyday.

Tomorrow I will be doing 8 miles with the running group Run-A-Mucks! So glad I met them. They are a great group of ladies and some gents :-) They have been with me since the beginning of my running days.  Up until 2011 I had maybe done 2 miles, walking, and that was when I just a young little one. Those where the days when I walked to all my friends house no matter where they lived. My runaway days. Then one day my dear friend, Elsa  invited me on a 6 mile run with the Run-A-Mucks and I was freakin droppin poop.  I couldnt do that. No way in hell did I think that I could run more then a mile. I swore I thought she was crazy. But she believed in me. She said it would be fine. So I put my trust in her and went. And I tell you what, that was the day I fell in love. Hanging out with friends and running together, time flies! Before you knew it we were done with the 6 miles. My legs were hurting when we stopped and for the next 4 days. I could not walk, I could not use the restroom. It was painful. But regardless, I felt accomplished. Thank you to Elsa and to all of the Run-A-Mucks!! I am thankful for you all! They inspire me, they will be one of the reasons why I want to accomplish this goal. 26.2 miles! I will be attempting the 26.2 on November 23rd. So technically I will have one done before January but I will not have a metal. Even though Run-A-Mucks gave me one for accomplishing my first 13.1 mile with them. That was lovely. I have it hanging on my wall right by the door! You can not miss it! Its half of a hubcap all decorated. :-) I love it!

 Next year I will be running in January for a charity, Best Buddies of Texas. http://www.bestbuddies.org/our-programs. I will be proud to run for them. They help people with disabilities and help them become part of society. They have created programs to help them with their leaderships and social skills. Please help me run for a reason. This reason that means so much to so many individuals. http://www.chevronhoustonmarathon.com/Donate/PersonalPage.cfm?MID=11393&CRID=36&CID=427 Your donation is very much appreciated!!! Anything helps.

On that note. I must go. Have to pick up my son from school. Everyone have a great day!!!

Smile! Its contagious!

What I want to be when I grown up

Ok.. so lately I have been thinking about what I want to be when I grow up. When I was just a little one, I was dying to be a teacher. I would pretend everyday to teach. I had a toy box that looked kind of like the one below. Except mine did not have those bears. Anywho... this toy box was in my closet. And I would say everyday, I would go in my closet and line up all my stuff animals and teach. I swear I was the best teacher ever!!!  Now that I am an adult I did still want that but then I found Coaching. Coaching through Beachbody changed everything. I love helping people. I love that I motivate someone to push harder and to give their all. I love it! So when coaching came in my life... I decided this is it. I am a coach for life! I found my calling.

Wellllllll things have changed again. I know my calling. I love to help people. And lately I have been watching #GreysAnatomy  with Dr. McDreamy :-) and now I want to be a #doctor. WHAAAAT? A doctor!?!? I know right.. What the Hell? . Then I was thinking I love love love animals and I hate how people view #pitbulls.  They really are the best animals EVER! So I would love to start rescuing them. And I also love how service dogs help people. Training dogs to be service dogs would be awesome!!! My head is everywhere. I love to sing, dance, paint, and so many other things!!! I dont want to hold myself to one career. I want to be everything!!?!?! But in the mean time I will make plans to make it all happen. It is possible. Dont you think? It can happen if I reallly want it to happen! I know I am not young, I would be the youngest intern. I know this maaaan. But I am smart and I learn fast. I can do anything!!! #ibelieve

Does anyone else want to be everything? What are you doing with your life now?

Toy Box

Thinking of so many things and dont know whether to go crazy or run.

Thankful for my kids. They have made me become who I am today. I would be in a horrible state if I had no kids. I do love to drink and I can only imagine what kind of trouble I would be in if I didn't have any kids. They make me whole. But they can drive me crazy. Being a parent , this is OK.  It is normal. I think sometime we forget and stress that we are going through so much. But one thing I have to remember is that time will pass. They will grow up. They will be ok. They will change. I know when I was younger I made horrible mistakes. Things that a young girl should not be doing. I fell so  bad in love with a boy that completely blinded me with young dumb love. I was also very mean to my mother. I ran away from house to house at the age of 10. I did live with another family for almost 2 years. I know I was bad. But time has passed and I have changed. I am not the same person that I was 15 years ago. I am not the same person I was 6 months ago. We all change. Time will pass. You just have be able to take on change. And that is ok. Change is good. I love my kids. And they will change. They are my life. They push me everyday , they are kids. This is normal. Life is ok. I am blessed with a beautiful family. 

Day 2 of thanks

Today I an thankful for my friends. Because of them, I push harder. This morning I went running with friends and did 7 miles. Felt great. It was a beautiful morning. I love all our talks. Time flies by with them.